I don't know, I do know that when I was under and he was telling me to hold the little girl and hug her, she was turning away and I was pushing away from the hypnosis, that was when I started crying. In hypnosis you are able to make your own choice, he is guiding me, but if it doesn't feel right you do not have to continue with it, that is what I think happened, he was pushing to fast and I pushed away from him.

I do trust my T, and he has always trusted and believed in me, just this past session with the questions being fired at me for 30 minutes, I felt like I was being backed into a corner or something, it didn't feel good at all!!!

I am pretty good at reading body language, something I had to learn as a child to survive, I should of guessed it was going to be a out of the twighlight zone session when he came in to the office, he sat down and was fidgeting, playing with his cell phone case, and a rubber band, dropped all the papers from my file on the floor.....it was just wierd, like he wasn't really there with me!

I emailed him that night after the session and told him how I felt, and asked him what was up with the 30 minutes of drilling me on my feelings, and talking about shock treatment and so on, I asked him if he was not believing in me anymore, he emailed me back saying NO, he is just trying to understand what is going on inside of me!!

Maybe it is all me, maybe I am so terrified to start this inner child work, that I am on the defense. I do know that I have to help my inner child, I just don't know how to do that!