I am going to my farm in KY alone. I decided while I was back there that I didn't want the rut from California to follow me to KY. I told him what he had to do in order for me to even consider the possibility, but what I really know is that he needs to figure out who he is & what he is.....figure out his values. He needs to start thinking & being an active part of his own life.

Luckily I had a chance for those 2 1/2 months to figure out that I was the same person I was before I got married 32 years ago & didn't like who I became around him. His lazy, I don't care attitued can be catching. He doesn't want to do anything & has no interests. I could go on & on with all the problems. All the time I was in KY he thought that I wouldn't hold strong with my demands (always got pushed past them in the past). I came back & told him no way he was going unless he proved he was changing now.....I wasn't going to take a chance that he would change once he got to KY.....tough luck.....I don't care anymore.....this is the way it is & I feel much more peaceful this way.

Right now, my plan is to just legally separate when the house sells here in CA....that way he can't mess me up financially in the futhre. I will go to my farm & he will go to ????.

I thought I would feel much worse about ending a 32 year marriage, but I am so happy it's over...I actually feel a great relief. Sees strange to not care after all those years.

Debbie