I a bit confused you state you wonder if this is DID returning. the reason Im confused is because in my location DID does not come and go, come and go. its a mental disorder someone has all their life until all their alters have been fully integrated to where they are all one whole person again. in short when a person no longer fits the diagnostic criteria in my link here in my location treatment providers can no longer label a person DID. to understand my locations ways on this think of it like a broken toe a medical doctor can not diagnose someone with a broken toe if their toe is no longer broke. when the toe is fused back together they are no longer diagnosed with that same broken toe.

another confusing point for me is you state you feel like you lost your protector....do you mean the staff person you were seeing made you feel protected and now that he is out of your life you are feeling like you have no protection? if so this is standard where I am located. here its called grieving and grief of that relationship.usually there is a period of time where one in a relationship feels sad and other emotions and that they have lost something when there is a relationship break up. if this is what you are talking about give it some time. its normal to feel this way when breaking up with someone you love.

did you recover from DID because you were in supposed love? only your own treatment providers can answer that. if this was me in my location my own treatment providers would say no because if love was the cure for DID then most everyone in the world with DID would no longer have DID because everyone somewhere has someone to love be it a person, plant or thing. here in my location the cure for DID is taking care of all the problems a person has in their life so that they no longer dissociate to such extremes.

again only your own treatment providers can answer about your own direct situation.