Hello
I think it is great you talk about the magical thinking aspect. I have had auditory hallucinations for a long time but since I was attacked (3mo ago) I have just started up with the visual kind (while Im awake, not sleeping). I think I see people no one else sees but they can talk and see me. They seem more real that I do to me. It undermines my efforts to trust anyone, real or not, including myself (are they hallucinating us or do we hallucinate them?... type of fear-distrust problems)

I worry they might be demons pretending to be people but they look and sound like people to me. No horns, hooves, or other obvious signs... but I "know" they are mean and evil, but they smile and talk nice in a tricky demon way... does that happen to you? I have tried to point them out to a stranger/witness but they told me I was crazy so I don't do that anymore. I just smile and nod politely instead of converse or react, so I don't upset anyone else... do you ever do that too?

I know we are not exactly the same but I felt better knowing we have a similiar challenge in our lives. Thanks for your post.

PS I am sexually dysfunctional (long time- not just 3mo) so I do not have any advice to share until I have some success in that area. I only masturbate 10 min and I am done for a couple weeks at least. I could not imagine doing that for hours or even one full hour... yikes...(to me that seems excessive, but I admit not being "well" myself in that area)... or ever wanting to watch others do it at all even for two minutes (I have porn adversion not addiction).

So the part about magical thinking and believing in demons.... I can relate to that alot.
Thanks again.