Thanks all of you dear friends!
Having a holiday weekend, I slept in this morning and had a long, complicated dream about him, like many of the recurring dreams I've had of him throughout my adult life. In this dream, he spent three platonic days with me visiting, before his impending wedding, all the while me hoping he would choose me instead! I hadn't had such a dream in a long time, and thought they were over. These dreams are so much like my real life experience and are unsettling.
I need to build a better life for myself with a real person or accept my solo condition.
Love,
Patty