I've seen things for a long time now I have a medical backround and am ex military. Working as an mp for a few years of that. I've done competitive shooting and am a sharpshooter. I've never had a misfire in my 25 years experience. I know you all are envisioning a crazy lady with a weapon going batshit. That's not the case. It actually calms me to know I am able to protect myself if needed. I can calmly approach a situation and diffuse or clear my home and area. My pistols and weapons are tools just like kitchen knives or screwdrivers they have a purpose and there is a time to use them and a time not to. We hunt to put food on the table that is how I am able to stay home as a mother of 4. We have 275 acres of farm and timber. We have bobcats Cougars and coyotes and sometimes they come into the yard. Emergency services are at best 30 minutes away. Did I mention my ex tried to kill me several times when we were together? My situation is a lot more complex than can be written. Repeating I may be newly diagnosed but I've dealt with mi for most of my life learning how to control it and what is real and what isn't. I am aware there will be a time that the lines will blurt more but for now I am trying to learn to recognize and overcome. yesterday I learned I have an unnecessary fear of being hurt or my family being hurt. That brings on anxiety which brings on everything else. I am calmed only by the fact that I am skilled enough to protect myself and my family. I was simply trying to get accrossed how bad my fear of harm is not start a debate about gun safety. It is and will always be a way of life for us. We aren't city people. We are God fearing country to the heart.

So my main question was is this unnecessary fear of harm a form of ptsd from trauma of past relationship? Are there different levels of ptsd? Is it possible for it to manifest years after the trauma or since I'm just starting to organize my symptoms I just didn't realize it?

No matter how small, a positive change deserves to be celebrated!