Hello Greenleaf0: This post sounds familiar... like I may have read it & replied to it previously. Did you post it somewhere else as well? Anyway. no matter... just curious. You know, I think we all have things we're just not cut out to do. And being around, & handling gross stuff sounds like it one of those things for you, & that's fine. It's just important to realize that this is something you need to avoid & stay away from jobs that would require you to come into contact with that sort of stuff.

As far as what to do about your relapse, my perspective would be that the important thing here is not to ruminate about this. Continuing to dwell on it & allow it to rattle around in your brain, so to speak, may only make matters worse. So if you find that you simply cannot let this go, my thought would be that it may be best to get with a counselor or therapist & talk this through. From what you wrote regarding this, as well as your reaction to your traffic accident, it sounds as though while you may well not have OCD, you do experience some extreme reactions to various kinds of situations. Left unaddressed, this may not serve you well as you continue on in life. My best wishes to you...