I agree. I have been diagnosed with BPD, although I'm pretty sure I've grown old enough that it's either not present anymore or quite insignificant. And I was much more internal. I didn't pick fights with others or have reckless behaviors, but I was intensely suicidal and actively self-injured.

And I either had concurrently or had a wrong diagnosis or bipolar II. Looking more closely at my symptoms, I really do think it was just BP but because I reacted so negatively to both anti-psychotics and mood stabilizers, they sort of gave up on that part and diagnosed me as major depressive disorder and BPD.

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When I'm manic, I use self-injury to calm myself. Last week I visualized cutting myself so I could let the "crazy blood" out, imagining it would slow me down. I was able to note that this was a thought and that I didn't need to do it because it wouldn't work.

When I'm depressed, it makes me numb. This is usually when I self-injure.