I'm sorry to still be harping on about this but I feel as though this is something I still need to talk about.

As some of you may have read in my last post, I have decided to quit seeing my current T. I found her approach (psychodynamic) was making me feel worse and she was not able to give me what I need (mainly emailing her in-between sessions). I would get so anxious during our sessions that I would shut down and totally disconnect from the conversation which obviously made it very difficult to engage in the therapeutic process. In-between sessions I would have all these emotions left to deal with but my T wouldn't really offer any coping strategies as that isn't really part of her practice. Her whole approach is about gaining a better understanding of your feelings and and greater "sense of self" which will help to reduce any "psychological tension". I knew all this going in and thought it would be helpful to me but after experiencing it I realised it wasn't what I need at this point in time.

Anyway, I'm now having second thoughts on all of this. I know that often things can get worse before they get better so maybe I just need to ride this out? I emailed my T telling her want to cancel my next session and take a break from therapy for a while and explained my reasons. I'm now wondering if I should have discussed this with her in person? I became quite attached to this T and experienced some pretty intense transference towards her (both positive and negative feelings). I know this is something I need to work through but I'm not sure I can do it with this T as everything was just way too intense. Also, the thought of being on my own without a T for a while is kind of scary