I am honestly trying not to give up and seek professional help. I have seen 4 therapist:
#1 Therapist family life conflicted with the times I was available to see them
#2 Therapist was very nice, but only a cheerleader. I spent hours venting only for them to cheer me on, give positive praise, but no clear guidance on how to manage my emotions, etc.
#3 Therapist would call me every week to inquire if I wanted to make an appointment with them.....until I ran out my eight EAP visits (Employee Assistance Program) then they stopped calling. Never called me again. The therapy sessions were not that helpful either, so I took that as a sign I was being used to be able to bill EAP, so I did not bother to call them.
#4 Therapist....well I think they need to see a therapist. This therapist should not have a license to practice and has been the worst experience I have had so far. I would go into my sessions and pour my heart out and express my feelings and state some facts. She would be argumentative with me and say some questionable things that I am pretty sure a therapist should not be saying. It started out good, but after a few sessions I realized this therapist is a complete jerk. Our last conversation was about an incorrect bill they sent and that conversation confirmed it. They were rude, condescending, and brash. I really should report the therapist, but I only have enough emotionally energy to focus on me right now.

Bottom line, I am trying to hang in there. But I do not want to keep going through a revolving door of therapist to get the help I need. These experiences have made me question the profession to honest.

Anyone have any ideas? I am definitely not going through another 4 therapist or two for that matter. At that point I will result to self managing my issues myself the best I can. Finding a good therapist is emotionally exhausting.

Sorry for the long post....I had to vent and reach out for ideas.