Maybe it's natural. To want everything organized = symbolizing organized mind = not going back into depression. Having bp can suck so bad, we want to feel like we have some control. Idk. But I know my family look at me a little sideways when I get like you're describing. Like "hmm you didn't seem to care about leaving a dish out for the past 3 months..." And they are correct. But now I do. . Maybe I did before also but could not wrap my head around how to even get the dishes (for example dishes, but there are also stacks of papers and many things) done.