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Originally Posted by 1976kitchenfloor
Hello. as I read a lot of your post as a fellow DID who is currently stable I am wondering about times of stability. a am almost seventy years old now. Looking back I can see there have been, if I recall rightly , three periods in my life during which I was getting lost frequently. I couldnt make it through a day without 'someone else steeping out'. A day could last forever and I really got a lot of work done since I wasnt sleeping in the usual sense. I was nodding off and repeatedly switching perspective.
I would like to know your experiences re this. Do any of you have stable times that last for months or even years and then something happens and you are not here anymore? Are you aware that you are in pieces? Do you see yourself from outside of yourself?
Thank you for sharing with me. I do beleive that connecting with each other and hopefully finding common ground will help us.
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Sherri: Omg hon... 70 years old....you've endured so much...I'm sorry.
Our body is 48.
Welcome to PC!
I hope we haven't freaked you out. I understand what you are saying. You sound co-conscience like we are where we "pass" the conscience as we present owning the present as a singularity. The "I" (conscience) as a combined animal feels different all the time, like someone else stepped out. Memories are like pulled away and we feel different. I so get it.
I also want to add that "I" feel like I haven't driven for days even though we drove all day yesterday. The day feels brand new like I just got there nevermind its past noon even though I sense we've been up all day. Its called co-conscience- being aware. If you was to really break it down, its actually loss time through missing memories. We have amnesia, but the light never goes out. Its so freaky!
It wasn't till the past year that I was able to individualize ourselves by keeping bios in a notebook. The seperations then became clear as to how we are a bunch of Others in here.
To the unaware conscience, it all feels like its just happening to a single entity. This is so freaky as to how it works.
This is how I see it. Our system "Robin" is a starship with a crew of others. Robin believes she's one. The crew (us the crew) takes turn piloting "Robin"... But without recognition and blindly faithful to our job. We work together. We actually conference in head and think of it as "thinking".
It wasn't till recent that we've understood the system structure here.
I hope this helps. We've done private study in the neuro-science of causes and several years of psychology and done a lot of experiments to discover our system and to how it works. Good luck!
