I used to consume alcohol when I felt depressed and alone, but my doctor recommended me to stop drinking completely as my liver tests weren't good from drinking (I still drink socially). So, yes, I understand the urge to drink to shut down your feeling, but I don't recommend it

About old, you are 60, right? The other day I was talking to someone about how retirement starts at age 60-65, and she said 60 is not that old any more. Funny, right? I don't think so. The average life span now I think is 68 worldwide, which means some people way pass the average, especially in the west where medical care and food are accessible. So, I don't think you are that old, and I think you have a good chance in finding someone.