---> "still pretty shamed of it"...

A mantra I've been trying to keep in mind the past few years : "Regret nothing. Not just the good, but especially the bad. To regret is to wish yourself as someone else, whose future is both uncertain and insignificant. Your past has shaped you, and empowered your shaping of the future. Embrace this past without remorse, and allow it to be strength in he future yet to come."
((Wordsy, I know, but really it's still kind of in-progress))

You're taking a journey that can be both painful and promising at the same time. Every lesson....every reclaimed piece of yourself....is another shining point of hope in the future.

And no, there really isn't an end. Even Jung never hinted at an eventual completely-assimilated-whole. We're always creating divisions within our psyche. That's how people function. But integrating the bigger divisions can help us take the reigns as we see new divisions rise.
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