Well I would highly recommend getting a pdoc. And yes I understand your concerns about meds and yea you're going to go through some trial and error. But from my many years of experience and being on and off meds, nothing is worst then how I was being off of them. The trials you go through being on them is often if not always worth the feeling of stability. I owe my life to the pdocs (there's good and bad ones yes) that helped me through my mess I put myself through when I messed up and stopped my meds. And ADs often make BP worst... But not always. There's probably like, 3 that I can take. Imagine the pain I went through to find those three lol. And for me, the wrong ADs make me hypo. But hypo is often not worst then full on mania when you haven't slept in so long that you rather end it. Been there. So bottom line, from my point of view, meds aren't that bad. I would suggest starting out and finding the right pdoc that you are comfortable with. I can't stress how important having the right mental health team is. Start off with a diagnosis from then and then they can tell you your options med wise. If you ever have questions feel free to PM me. If you don't have the tapatalk app then let me know so I can go on safari. And you can always ask us on here about your med concerns to ease your mind. We may be loony but we don't bite lol.

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