Macd123, different perspective - are you sure you are not suffering from seasonal affective disorder? I see you're from Seattle - I can only imagine what winters are like there. I love Seattle btw.

I live in a part of Europe when winters are rainy and windy. When it rains days in a row I feel like I have failed in my life miserably despite all my achievements. I feel useless and worthless and that nobody needs me or cares for me. I feel that the problems that I have are unsolvable and the good things that I have in life are not that great at all.

Do you feel better when it's sunny?