I'm the jealous type. Maybe too much so, and it's making me feel guilty that I am jealous of others who meet online and form solid romantic relationships.

After all, it's that very situation that lead me down the path where I basically had an emotional and mental breakdown over a terrible situation. How then, does it work for other people. How? How in the hell does it work? Do I obsess too much over the people I try and foster a relationship with? Or do forum relationships just not work out in general?

I guess I'll never ever truly know the secret as all three freakin' times I tried....well, yeah. disaster. Dammit. Life sucks.

I guess talking helps, but maybe I should just talk to the people I'm jealous of, apologize to them, to get a load off my chest and stop being an immature butthole about it.