Hello Dustin -- I see a lot of progress in your post. In it, you recognize that other people may be struggling, and that perhaps in reaching out you have had positive effects, too.

When you first started posting, you never noticed that anyone here had problems that you. As low as you may feel today, there is a tiny germ of self-esteem in knowing that we can help others just by reading and responding.

I hope you will see the progress, too, and give yourself a pat on the back.