Is your mania turning twords a Psycotic episode ?
I've read all of your posts and it reminds me of how convinced I was that I needed 200 Barbie dolls. Luckily they didn't cost $60,000.

You say you've gone thru most of your savings. What are you going to do about that?

Geography doesn't always heal. Leaving to go on a vacation sometimes just means you take your mental problems to another location.

You may need ip. It could prevent you from crashing hard on the outside.