Thanks everybody I'm still here. I'm having trouble sleeping so I got up. Anyway, I do exercise and try to eat well. That's the disappointing thing is I think I'm taking care of myself but the emotional part is really taking a toll right now. I'm retired so I part of the problem is staying occupied which I'm trying to work on. Also, I'm recovering from the loss of a friend which I became attached to romantically (mistake) and she didn't. This is really the problem which amplifies the loneliness and paralyses you. People say it will get better but I really don't want to go through another recovery period - I can't take it! Strong is good but boy it would be nice to win once (relationship wise). Thanks again