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Old Mar 06, 2016, 09:28 AM
Anonymous55498
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I never feel that I don't have anything to talk about but have a tendency to sometimes cancel sessions or take a break when I feel most unstable or want to indulge in old repetitive behaviors. It's still hard for me to overcome this current and go to therapy to talk about it instead of acting out. I have issues sticking with therapy in a consistent, regular manner, which actually reflects my general erratic tendencies in many areas of my life. Sometimes I tell myself that I want to save the money I spend on therapy, but in reality I want to spend it on often useless or destructive behaviors. So I have these spins when I feel I want to be free (of treatment and working on issues), but in reality those are the times I am the least free and go back to what I wanted to be liberated from in the first place. So I don't really have the right to say anything about when it's good to "tune down" therapy other than from a purely theoretical view point, like knowing what would be right for me (yet often not doing it).

As an analogy, I would maybe compare it with being on long-term medication. Is it a good idea to stop an antidepressant, for example, when someone experiences a period of relative peace, especially if the person has a long history of a turbulent existence? I would argue it probably isn't unless it's been lasting for a considerable amount of time, including that when problems come our way again, we are able to handle them in a constructive way. Then maybe start to taper the medication (treatment) slowly and see how it goes instead of stopping abruptly.

I agree with those that say having lighter "chatty" sessions can be good sometimes even if we feel that paying a therapist for that may be silly. And it does not necessarily need to be new things -- after all, isn't one of the main points of therapy to deal with old patterns and issues?

Maybe the fact that you have nothing special to talk about and these thoughts of taking a break or stopping therapy would be something interesting to talk about?
Thanks for this!
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