had a nightmare i was in state hospital. doing college in state hospital. im just glad its daytime right now but im afraid to take a nap. i just want these nightmares to be over. they are spilling into the daytime and its starting to get into paranoia for me. i cant tell if ive been having delusions. no one bounces off me. like tells me if i am. no one threatens me with hospital. im glad but at least id know if something is wrong.

idk if anything is wrong.
all i know is my dad asked me if i needed to goto the hospital. so maybe thats my clue.

i just feel like the devil is inside of me. i keep praying amd praying and praying and burning incense. i have thoughts of cutting myself to release the demons.

im not sad though.