As many of you may know, and if not ill give a brief intro, but ive had a very very bad month. My health anxiety had gotten to a peak and I was losing my mind. I went to the doctor, got bloodwork done, and even ended up in the ER. Everything was fine and all my symptoms were anxiety related. I started meds too (been almost 2 weeks). Anyways, the last session of therapy I had was I believe the second week of February and I havent gone since. I had a session 2 weeks ago but cancelled because I was feeling sick after the bloodwork, had a session last week but said I had to study (really I just didnt feel like going), and a session tomorrow which I just sent an email to T asking if I could cancel again because I had to "study". Now dont get my wrong, I actually have to study since I have some makeup tests to do (took a break from school as my doctor recommended). I think there is an underlying reason I keep cancelling too I just honestly dont know what it is. My T assigned homework but I didnt get a chance to do it over the month plus it sort of triggers me to do it. Also, I feel calmer when I do cancel, like I dont have to worry all night about my session. So with all the sessions cancelled I wont be seeing T until the end or March or even in April which means I will not have gone for 2 months.

Has this ever happened to any of you? Where you just dont feel like going and feel better when you cancel?

My T is amazing and I have no problem with her but I feel like since I havent gone in a while my fear of going is coming back so I just keep avoiding it. I have no clue! I also dont want to talk about any of the things that happened over this month and want to forget but I know that my T would want to talk about it and see why it happened.

Thanks !!