I am not saying you are trying to do this, but please do not attempt to self diagnose. You have already done this once which has lead you to the situation you are in now. The symptom that you have mentioned for Buspirone does not sound like one specific to that medication. You may be stressed. So there may be other factors involved. I think you just do not want to be on medication anymore. This is understandable considering your past bad experiences. I do think that this is a very reasonable desire which can be met if you were to get a second opinion. No matter what happens, the whole point is to get better, right? I think the poster who suggested the second opinion has a very good idea.

Tucson

PS How is skipping doses helping you to see if the symptoms improve? This honestly is the only part that does not make any sense to me. Perhaps you need to start by giving yourself a basic course on how the body processes medications, including the concept of half life. Also with some medications this is a big No No.