I read your story. People are SICK. Why do people do what they do. I can understand how your upbringing has impacted your life.

Any thing of mine that you read, will likely be triggering. I seem to have a way of doing that. Feel free to check those threads out, and any one here is welcome to read through my statistics. In short, the titles alone should give you a general idea of what is going on. Lots of it is spousal abuse related. A lot of it is rape related to.

Currently I am having issues with repressed memories of CSA. I am having partial flashbacks, and memories of things that make no sense. I once told someone it is like somebody took several puzzles and dumped them in by brain and mixed them all up, then threw in some pieces that don;t even go to those puzzles. I didn't get to see what the puzzles looked like before they got dumped in there. So I am kinda left with a million puzzle pieces and no picture to go by. I turn each piece around and around in my head and wonder if it is really supposed to be part of the picture or not. That's the only way I know how to explain it.