Sorry for posting so much, I'm just going through a really rough patch right now and no one seems to (or wants to) understand. I'm angry, irritable, anxious, paranoid, having racing thoughts and just feel like I want to throw something and jump out of my skin. I'm taking geodon,(which is making my anxiety so much worse), and upped my lamictin (which I thought would help my rapid cycling but I don't know what its doing). I can't go into hospital because I just went in January(my insurance won't pay) and I am going for a forth opinion with a new pdoc in 2 weeks. Hopefully I get some answers, (and survive until then with my mood swings!) if not, I just don't know Just reading everyone's posts though helps a lot, and keeps my mind off my situation. So thanks everyone for keeping me going in what seems to be the lowest point in my life. I appreciate all the advice and support