That was well put. I can see why that was particularly revealing to you. I liked the metaphor.
My most recent epiphany was a month or so ago. I had an important project at work and it terrified me. I wanted it to be perfect. I completed the project but could not push the send button to share it with my supervisor's supervisor. I have occasional bouts of anxiety and I found myself paralyzed by it. I talked to my therapist about it and we decided that what I had produced would be "good enough". And that instead of being perfect, (it took me years to finish my doctoral dissertation because of this paralyzing fear), I should strive toward good enough. That made me furious at my T. I couldn't figure out why she would suggest I submit anything but a perfect product.
I submitted the report with much trepidation. Nothing happened. I got no feedback. I don't even think it was read very carefully. In my struggle with perfectionism, I finally won. I learned good enough is good enough. My next project is due tomorrow. I will send it off with that same mantra because it is good enough.
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Bipolar: Lamictal, and Abilify. Klonopin, Ritalin and Xanax PRN.
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