I recently realized how much I tend to read into what people say and don't say. When something doesn't go as planned or how I think it should it reinforces that I am really not important to the people I care about. I do this with my best friend when she has to cancel plans or is unable to do something. I also realized I do this with T a lot. Lately, I have felt like T no longer cares about me the way she did and that she is annoyed with me. So I started to push her away, contacting her less, being less open with her and stuffing a lot of feelings. I was looking for some information she had sent me through email quite some time ago. I ended up reading a lot of our email exchanges. I realized she has always been the same compassionate person and encouraged me to contact her whenever needed. She didn't change; it is my perception and lack of trust rearing its ugly head again.