i got into an argument with my mom...over why she has been visiting my sister so much. i guess part of me is jealous that she gets all this attention with her boyfriend then gets attention on getting married for a year and then gets attention for the rest of her life with this baby...
it was really over why cant my mom see me more yet shes always in my sisters life. id just like someone to be in my life like that. no one is. im vying for my her attention and im pushed off frequently for other things...

um idk...
i just...i dont understand.
i cant believe im sorta blatantly honest on here. she says she doesnt know me because i dont tell her stuff and when we are together we dont talk. i guess i see it differently.

then she says i was never supposed to be born...

i wish someone could bring me into the light of understanding. after im dad and gone these PC posts will be like my journal forever entered into the internet.

how depressing...