Hey, seems like you need to give your life some more meaning, you know a point to being here. There's plenty of people who could use your help in the world, so don't give up. Drugs are only going to make you worse and you know you'll end up regretting it. Try to keep determined to not do it, think of your kids, if they knew all about this they would probably ask you to not do it, so don't do it for them.

If you need to talk you can send me a PM, good luck and all the best.