So I guess we were both over the edge with stress.

Something I didn't know until my grandmother told me is that my mom is going through menopause. That explains all the mood swings she goes through plus still having her period. She is also upset with her job. It's a nightmare for her and she is unable to retire. She still has seven years until she is eligible to her retirement fund. I don't feel comfortable sharing her job because someone said it could be leading a paper trail, but I will say she entered to job hoping to help people and now she comes home feeling miserable and that each day makes her "lose faith in humanity". And on top of it, my brother came home and she was not only looking forward to spend time with him but that she paid for his plane ticket and she hardly got any time to spend with him. And I was being a bipolar crazy person cutting myself and screaming at her.

As for me, I knew my brother wouldn't be spending much time with me and I relished every opportunity to spend with him, but I do find it odd that his last time we get to see him before deployment he'd rather spend time with his friends than with his family. There was also not taking my meds that led me to spin out of control. The only thing I can remember about being so angry is that I wanted to be more responsible...and yet I drove through the court like a madperson to the point where it got my driving privileges taken away.

But after I apologized to my mom, we had a nice meal together as a family and joked and laughed like nothing was wrong.