Rcat - yeah, a gate would be wonderful! We had actually talked about it a bit, but our management company recommended against it. He said that the communities he manages with gates spend a lot of money on them (they break a lot) and that it's not worth it.

re: Your PTSD... I think that's how I feel too. I can completely feel all the stress chemicals (hormones?) amping up, and really just want to run and hide somewhere. It's hard.

I don't think I can move. I've thought about it, but everything around here is really expensive, and my little townhouse is nearly paid off. And, I'm not sure if I want to stay in this state. Actually, I don't really want to stay in the state, but at this point, I don't have the energy/motivation to really look for a job out of state, interview, and move. I don't have much of a support network, but the little bit I have is *here* and moving seems overwhelming. So, I'm stuck here for a bit.

Thanks for all your thoughts!

RxQueen875 - Yikes. Your friend sounds really hard to have around. I'm glad you were able to get her to leave! And the guy begging for "some stuff" - omg. That does not sound like a good situation! Glad you moved! People are crazy... you'd think they'd have the sense to behave better in public, but apparently, nope.

Inspirational Girl - me too!