I could really use some help here. As I said it's been years and there hasn't been any real support for me.

My family really should have been paying more attention when they were nattering on about family loyalty and honor. I know this cause they would have said things like "save your son don't worry about the mother or the baby your son can always make an other" or "the best thing would be if she took the baby and left" Or my favorite "your not well enough to do all this it's too hard on you, kick them out". My son is hurting his son is almost 2 1/2 and non verbal. Not sure if it's something that happened when he was all over the place or a control issue. He talks in his sleep.

Her family is horrid I really don't understand why she stays in contact with them but then my family isn't being much better. So I guess I'm not sure why I stay in contact with mine any more either. The things they say to her are just this side of criminal. Though she swears that they would never hurt her son. But they hurt him by hurting her.

Her doctor has changed her meds again so she is back to not sleeping and that is not good for her. It's hard on her too as she isn't as patient with the baby when she is over tired. That upsets her. It also means that an off handed comment about nothing really important can be taken the wrong way and throw our lives into melt down mod. This is really not good for the baby, he knows that his parents aren't getting along.

I'm trying to support everyone plus my other two kids. I'm a little worried about leaving town in may. My daughter is graduating from university and I'm going. The last time I left town I wasn't able to mediate a problem. It grew out of proportion and ended a police report. I know it wasn't my fault and that I deserve some time with friends and away but still it is a worry.

I'm walking a fine line trying to keep everyone in balance but it shouldn't be just me doing all the work. Sometimes I feel very resentful. I was suppose to be figuring out what was wrong with me and how to get my dr to listen to my research. But instead I am babysitting and a hostage to everyone else schedule. I would like some parts of my life back. For that I need advice because I know very little about mental health issues and do not want to do anything that will hurt her or under mine her progress so far.