I haven't really been eating well this semester and probably last semester, but it's not as bad as it is now.

I think I tried talking about it to someone about my eating habits and how I just have a few snacks a day but they took it as I eat a lot of snacks throughout the day instead of three big meals and said that I was healthy. I didn't know how to tell them how little I've actually been eating.

There are some that know but they probably don't know the extent of it. One was shocked that all I ate one day was some cotton candy.

I've usually been like a candy bar and maybe some chips, or crackers and cheese, plus dinner on some days, or a small bowl of cereal. It's basically eat one bowl of cereal in the morning, maybe a snack in the afternoon, and maybe dinner. Some days I just eat one snack.

I'm not sure if stress is causing this or my meds or both but a part of me is glad that I am losing weight and I sometimes make plans not eat, or only eat a certain amount, and starve myself because maybe my hips won't be so big and I won't have anymore periods and maybe I'll stop getting misgendered.

And it just feels weird to eat when it goes into my stomach, even though I may like the taste and texture of something. Sometimes I find myself unable to eat something because it's texture makes me want to gag, and my school doesn't always cook tge things in the same way. Or I forget to eat.

I don't know where I'm going with this. I also don't know where to put this, as it doesn't really fit into any eating disorders. I don't try to do this on purpose, although I may be glad to lose weight, but it's not why I have an eating problem. Food is just hard for me to eat and I only like a small amount of things, and my appetite has been off.