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Originally Posted by coldwut
I know I need help, and it took me a while to figure out how bad it's actually gotten. But then I read that other people forget to eat and maybe I'm just making a big deal out of this because I don't seem to even be at risk for an eating disorder if I were to go by the screenings. This probably doesn't make much sense. I'm tired and barely ate today. Sorry.
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I think it is good you came on Psych Central for some feedback. What alarmed me was your distress around your period. That is a psychological issue. That you are linking this to eating...you see, this isn't healthy.
How you are eating is painful. You are probably not getting enough calories to sustain yourself throughout the day. Eating candy is so so so bad. You might as well be taking speed. The sugar in the candy is raising your blood sugar level so you get a quick bit of energy. But it doesn't sustain you and will leave you MORE TIRED. You are completely ruining your metabolism.
Your body is so stressed by what you are doing. You cannot exist on snacks or trash non-food like cotton candy. You are starving yourself of fuel. Of course you are going to be tired. You need carbs in the form of healthy fruits and vegetables. You need protein. You need grains. If your school doesn't have healthy choices you can even find fruits in convenience stores these days. Carry around an apple, a banana, a couple of cheese sticks...for good energy. Also...it sounds like you need to eat MORE.
ALSO...as you eat less you lose you appetite. This isn't normal. It is starvation. So if you aren't hungry it is because you are going whole days with hardly eating!!!!!!!!!! The average woman needs a minimum of 1200 to 1500 calories per day to feel good.
You need to make a "take action" list and stick it up where you can see it...somewhere like your closet door, or on your mirror. Put it where it is in your face. Don't let yourself off the hook. I think you need to seek professional help whether or not you think you need it right now, because the direction you are going in is dangerous.
Please understand your are on the inside of this and it is hard to get proper judgement.
What if you asked people if they thought it was normal for you to sometimes exist on 200 or 300 calories a day, or eating just junk food? What would they say? Be honest. That's the first step. Get brutally honest with yourself.
When you resolve your issues with food it won't be a problem. It will be a way to fuel yourself, and it can be enjoyable, but it want run your life.
Anyway, don't be scared about seeking help. Everyone who you talk to will respect you for asking for help. Including me.
