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Originally Posted by TrailRunner14
I think the feeling of me trying to figure out what's going on with me combined with the judgement of "Your ok." "Why can't you just lay this down?" Has created quite a connundrem.
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Another word in that. I'm trying so hard to make sense if this and most of the time it just doesn't make any sense at all.
I always looked for someone to come and rescue me. Help me!! But there is this quietness that is kind of understood inside. If that makes sense. Anyone who showed interest or wanted to be my "other" was always a thought of a rescuer. Someone to help me out or make sense of this. This place that I didn't want to be.
28 years later. Here I am. I feel like I've tried to be everything that I needed to be for my boys, hiding what I didn't want them to see, and pretending to be what I needed to be for the h.
I'm gonna cut this off here. I could sit here and go on but it's not really productive.
I pray God heals my heart and mind. I look to him for my safety and my hope.
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