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Originally Posted by chickenfoot
Last time I got benzo's was a good while ago. Totally taking them to get wasted though. Though I generally don't feel anything off them unless I'm anxious. So I suppose technically I'm using them correctly  |
The vast majority of benzos don't have a recreational value...
As you kind of say, if you are feeling good off them then that's probably because they are relieving your anxiety, rather than actually making you high.
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Originally Posted by chickenfoot
I am a druggie. I'm a drug addict who doesn't do that much drugs, like I take as prescribed but I know if I could get a load of drugs I'd be in trouble. But given the opportunity I'd go mental on them.
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That's me.
I mean, I have typically always had trouble holding myself back. It's led to some pretty wild times, but some pretty **** times too. Even after I got better, I used drugs I thought wouldn't be a problem in reasonable moderation but still ended up brining back my psychosis.
Ironically, I really didn't go over the top when I got my first acute episode. I guess years of using drugs recreationally on a semi-regular basis caught up with me though.
But I've turned a corner now... I know if I want my to go fully down the road to recovery & stay healthy after that, then I just can't take drugs full stop.
It's just not worth it.