oh god, that is never going to session with me. nope. i have huge issies with anything that might be seen as a criticism of him.HUge. i cannot say to him that he messed up or that i was at all mad. i can say i was upset but i can't in any way do anything which may cause anger or upset in him, real or perceived.

so no, it won't go. i will sit on it. i will go and tell him how upset i was, how hard those days were and what i ended up doing to myself to compensate... and i am considering telling him i need a new T, or just not going to therapy. i spend a lot of time thinking about therapy, thinking about him and our relationship, but not enough time thinking about my issues that i went there to solve. i feel so much worse and not in a way that moves me forward. i just feel worse generally.