Wow... last night I thanked my h for the fun day we had, and why can't he just say "you're welcome" or "I had a fun day too"? No, he had to say "Well, if you'd stop doing therapy, we could do even longer trips more often." I did not respond, just walked away. It upsets me so much. I still haven't figured out how to talk to him about it and help him understand why I want to continue. He knows I'm taking a break, and probably in his mind thinks I'm not going to go back, but I am.not.quitting yet. When I told him I was pushing out the break until April, he got all snippy about it. I wish I knew what his problem is. Maybe it's a symptom of something else in our marriage I don't know and he's just focusing on the spending money on therapy as something bad instead of whatever is really bothering him. I'm weary of it, whatever it is. And have to fight really hard inside myself to not feel guilty about continuing because he gets me thinking that I am selfish and don't sacrifice enough for our family. I did try to explain that to him one time, I said look at your friend and his wife. She's always getting new things for their house, or new clothes, fancy phones for their kids, etc. I said take a look at my clothes for one - I rarely buy new clothes, most of what I wear to work are skirts my sister made for herself then gave me when she got tired of wearing them, my undergotchies (ha! got to use that word!) all have holes in them, I have 2 pairs of shoes (my tennies and flip flops), I stopped coloring my hair, I buy cheap shampoo, I take my lunch to work, I don't go out drinking with friends etc. etc. don't tell ME I'm not sacrificing. But I don't even look at it as sacrificing, I'm happy with those things because I thought that was what I needed to do in order to go to therapy. I don't know. I guess I just needed to rant a little. Sigh. Now it's time to leave for work. Have a good day, couchies. I'm sorry to be a downer this morning.