I most likely do need an adjustment with my cocktail. But my pdoc has such a full calendar it was so hard to fit me in sooner than I would've have liked. I've been emailing her every few weeks or so and she has me up my Lamictal each time, but not much improvement. My appointment is finally only a week away (next Monday). I cannot wait! I saw my T last Monday, and the little that we talked about really helped. But even though some of the cognitive distortions are not really there anymore, I still feel...empty and don't really get excited about anything anymore. I will say that being around my sister and nephew helps, but they can't stay with me all day every day. Anyway, I came into the office today to help, because otherwise, I probably would've called out today. Now I'm forced to work without the temptation of going back to bed..