Okay, so you're transgender. Do you have support from an LGBT community?

I still suggest you make a "take action" list. Which is something guys would like to do. lol Start replacing junk food with healthier foods. Which will take time, like having to make plans and going to stores that have the foods you need. Then...eating. And make an appointment. I can't see any way around getting counseling.

How the heck are you going to do all this if you are tired???

Your path can be exciting. But health requires commitment. You also sound depressed. You are hiding your habits. Get out of the cave into the sunlight. That's all I can say. In my recovery from depression and anxiety nutrition is one of the big three: good food, sleep, exercise. That's the big umbrella on my take charge list and everything else falls under those three.

PS Nobody in a store cares about you buying personal products and who they are for. My ex-husband would sometimes buy my personal products.