thanks...
i just haven't been taking care of myself ultimately...
drinking too much... drugs... self harm ...
just not the life i wanted - or want...
just wish i could change it...
it just doesn't seem fair at all... don't know why it can't be fair...
dont like any of these things... wanted so much more... but so much less...
i will be fine one day...
if it has to wait till the last day i guess...
through all the pain - just can't seem to give up...
blessing and a curse...

stay strong...
maybe there is a purpose behind all of it...