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Such nice stories!
For me: age 9–11, around age 22 and age 31 till now.
Cathartic joyful freedom from many (BP-lite/SZ-prodromes) problems. "Losing it", but not really (really really came only later).
It still hurts (a tiny bit) if people take my personality for BP: no BP doesn't flippin' mean that suddenly I will do all your bidding! I'm no sheep. Never was: that's called depression and too tired to fight you.
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide.
See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me.
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