confused, you're not a jerk! I think you just weren't sure whether you wanted to go or not (you have another thread in which you state several times you do not want to go), and when your therapist took you up on your offer to skip a week, it suddenly hit home with you that that was not what you really wanted at all. I think it is hard to know what we are really feeling sometimes. I know I am that way. If you really want a session this week, go ahead and call and ask for one. And it is not your fault your T may be overworked right now. He is a professional and responsible for setting his own schedule, having a certain number of clients per week, etc. These are not your responsibilities. ((((hugs))))