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Originally Posted by rep97
So I started taking zoloft a couple months ago and I am noticing results but I am still frustrated and depressed.
Before the zoloft I would be in constant pain and terror 24/7 but now I am a little better but I still find myself depressed .. just 30% less than before maybe.
Now I would be depressed when I wake up and then I would watch something on tv and then for a sec or two I would get a jolt of joy and I would chase that thought .. to think what it was that made me happy and I can't find anything. This is frustrating because the small spells of happiness that I find are just that.. small moments.
So what I mean is I am trapped in my mind and no connection to my body/gut and dissociating this way and finding no joy from life.
Can anyone relate? How did you fix it .. if you managed to fix it at all?
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You won't fix it all immediately. Dealing with PTSD takes a time, patience, (Meds for me), intensive talk therapy, and a great deal of hard work. You can't fast forward through it. I know I wish I could. I am not good at waiting and admitting I have control issues.
I had been making steady good progress; then, I had a really bad setback last week out of nowhere. I had a terrible episode of disassociation with a few lesser eps after. I realized I have been getting back into negative PTSD habits. I am angry at myself. But I have to remember that sometimes things will go well and sometimes not. That it's a tough, long journey and I have to be kind, good, and proud of myself all along the way.