If you are going to trans you are going to need a lot of counseling along the way. Well, I hope you will because now so many people are reversing their trans, and I think maybe if they had more counseling in the first place it would have been helpful. Because going trans then reversing trans --- the poor body! That must put so much stress on the body.

I encourage you to speak out in your support group. Now that you have started talking here on PC, I hope all of us here have helped you realize that when you find safe places to speak out, maybe it helps you figure things out.

Thumbs up on the fruit smoothies! I am a smoothie fan and have them every day.

I am sorry you grew up in a situation of food insecurity. I could see how this would start up a whole pattern of stoic undereating. It is an interesting thought that this could lead to ARFID and it certainly seems possible.

The point is, you can do this.

It seems obvious you need to get yourself into a counseling situation where the professionals are aware of all the symptoms you are experiencing, and can address them one by one.

Do this for yourself. The pressures of school are enormous without all of this, too. Hugs. You are going to be okay.