is simple for me...
i just feel great pain... pain that shouldnt exist.... is like having a great medical condition... but itsnot real... doctor just look at you and say you are just depress.... you need to do these few things and try to get better... but is something i cant xplain... people cant understand how it hurts.... because its not a pain that most peoplefeel.... is something that hurts your soul....
i hate it.... it hurts so bad.... in my body.... some days i cant walk for it hurting.... dont know what people think about me because i try to hide everything.... and i do good job... but i cant hide the pain so much.... the look in my eyes when someone looks at me in the ey.... i dont look at people in the eyes anymore....
cant....

its like.... waiting to be born... but you know you were born before - you know what you are going to face... you dont want to do it - but you dont have any choice... and you know you may have to last 100 years going through it... but its every day you are being born... when you wake up you see how much suffering you have ahead....
is just something you want to stop.. never start.... why did it have to start...? is just you suffering... a child in a torturous world....