I understand there's going to be politics everywhere, especially in universities and especially when receiving tenure. This is just some of the worst I've encountered so far.

I'm just concerned because I've never fit in anywhere. I've never found where I'm supposed to be in my field. Also, between my interests and degrees, it would be difficult to find a job in higher ed anyway. In retrospect I should have gotten my doctorate in another subfield. I really don't want to have to go back and get another one because at this point I wouldn't be able to afford it unless I got a full tuition waiver or something. And it would be 3+ years getting essentially the same degree again but with a different dissertation.