*THIS COULD TRIGGER ALSO*

I had my best friend's boyfriend do that to me, only I wasn't sleeping. I was laying on their livingroom floor and TRYING to sleep, but it wasn't happening. Everyone else in the house (my friend, her boyfriend, and their roommate) was in their rooms.

I was facing away from their room, facing the stereo, so when I heard someone coming, I couldn't tell who it was. I didn't turn to look or anything, I figured they were going to the kitchen or something. But I felt them kneel behind me and start rubbing my back. I thought it was strange that my friend would be rubbing my back, but then I thought she might be trying to wake me up. UNTIL I felt his hand on my stomach and then my breasts. Then I KNEW it wasn't my friend, but her boyfriend!

I was so scared, I didn't know what to do. So I pretended to wake up and sat up facing him. He tried to act like nothing happened, but I immediately got up on the couch and put my blanket around me. He tried to get me back down on the floor but I wouldn't do it. Instead, when he went to the bathroom, I ran into their roommates bedroom and told him what happened.

So the roommate came out and made my friend's boyfriend go back to his room. And the roommate slept on the couch while I was on the floor. Nothing else happened, but I felt horrible!!! I felt like it was my fault and didn't tell my friend about it.

I told my mom and my boyfriend's mom, and eventually it got back to my friend. She didn't blame me and told me it had happened before with someone else. I was relieved to know it wasn't my fault and she didn't blame me, but I still felt bad because I really enjoyed spending time with both of them and he really betrayed me AND my friend!!!

I don't know why, but I've never thought of that as sexual abuse even though I was only 14 at the time, and my friend and her boyfriend were both in their 20s. I associate this with assult, but not abuse. It only happened once and he didn't penatrate or even reach that area of my body, only my breasts. So I guess that's why I never thought of it as abuse. Who knows.