sometimes i have to leave if someone is too happy...
i love nothing more than to make people happy - but when someone is so happpy and seem not to have a reason... i guess i just get jealous...

but anger is a strong emotion...
i used to be so rageful - but alot of my anger turned into more depression after some years... just gets to the point where you think what is the point of any of it... dont have the energy to be angry anymore...
just gotta make it stop... some how gotta break it....

you can keep going.... you must keep going....
there is no one else on the earth that is like you.... you are special...
you must try to see how special you are.... not because you can program a computer to walk around the room.. not becauyse you can build a space ship to go to mars... not because you can clone humans.... but because you have something no one on else on earth has... and is your soul.... you are unique... you can affect many people in many ways.... just have to hold on.... try to find strength in youself whery you didnot think it was....

i try every day.... its hard every day....
but i have to just tell myself no one on this planet is like me....
no one else can look at someone the way i can, no one else can think of something stupid or quirky to say like i can....
ya understand...?
we hurt.... but maybe they need us to hurt.... so we can help them have good life....